My house is built on unsteady ground; I can go through every room sorting out the
stuff I no longer need, making everything look neater and seem more
organised but where does that stuff I no longer need go when I throw
it away? There are things in boxes I haven't even looked at for
years but still I carry them around (with me or as protection?) feeling they are
important to me in some way and that I will regret it if I discard
them. I store these possessions in my outhouse and promise myself
that one day I will sort it all out and use the room for something
productive such as art or meditation but I moved in here two years
ago and I still haven't made a start on it. I spend time making the
other rooms look nice and feel homely – I am rather house-proud.
Things break every now and then and it always takes me a while to
bother sorting them out, take the shower hose for example – it has
been damaged for weeks and weeks now but because it still seems to be
working all right I haven't felt any urgency in getting it sorted,
what is likely to happen is that I won't do anything about it until
it is no longer possible for me to have a shower. Does it really
matter if my shower works properly or not when my house is at risk of
subsidence anyway? It seems like only a matter of time before the
foundations give way and my home crumbles and is engulfed by earth
and water. Now is the time for me to gather my things together: all
the essentials I need to start again and not forgetting those
valuable trinkets I am undeniably attached to that show something of
my character. This house needs to be emptied and raised to the
ground, I need to find myself a new steadier plot of land and with
added support from new materials I will salvage the good bits from
the old house and build myself a stronger more unshakable house that
the big bad wolf can never blow down.
